Kristen said I am not an Artist

Faces might be the easiest thing to draw. People are always looking for faces, seeing them even where they are not. Picasso miserably--and beautifully--distorted faces yet still people looked and saw the face he had created. I can draw a face and my audience will see a face because we all are looking for faces. In crowds of strangers, I look for people I might know, people who might look somewhat familiar. At my university, thousands of miles away from my high school, three years since I've seen these people, I get pangs of recognition at a face before I realize that person, whom I am remembering and recognizing on a strangers face, is 1700 miles away.

Once, I walked into a classroom here my freshman year and saw a girl sitting by an empty chair and a strong dislike rose up within me. I realized after the class that I was associating her with a girl from my high school. Bizarre.

Lately, with my high school memories fading, it doesn't happen as much. The other week I was talking with friends from high school and they were naming all these people and showing me all these faces and I recognized none fully and some vaguely. In part this is because I really lived in my own happy world in high school and didn't pay attention much to people around me who I found uninteresting. But people who had profound meaning to me, who if I saw now I might not recognize, if I see their face upon another's, the face I remember from high school, I'll have that remembrance feeling before I remember that I am forgetting where I am now.